Ok, I've had it. Can anyone please tell me what's worse than having an autistic friend? Someone who is so bloody damn hell emo over a girl? Somebody who shuts himself out from the rest of the world... During school holidays... I've tried so hard, inviting you for outings incessantly. People plan stuff, you just refuse... "I don't feel like it.", "No money." (Ok I'll accept this one.) "Go for what? So sian..." etc. I hope things will change for the better...


I am letting everything out tonight. I've been seeing so much of it, and I can't take it anymore. Lets start out with a question shall we? Anyone knows what are the three most powerful words in the world? Ok, nevermind. It's subjective. I believe that these 3 words are SORRY, THANKS, PLEASE. Yes, I think these three words are the most powerful words in the world, if being said sincerely, and not just for the sake of saying it. People nowadays, what do they say to replace these three words?



First for "SORRY". Oh, I love this one. "Fine, fine!" (When he/she is in the wrong but doesn't want to admit his/her mistake) "Whatever... *Rolls eyes*"Usually done by arrogant people. This is the SECOND most untolerable response when that person is clearly in the wrong. Here's the worst one of them all, and sad to say, I have to take this nonsense EVERY SINGLE DAMNED DAY. Yes my mum. She does it ALL THE TIME. ------> CHANGE OF SUBJECT. The MOST irritating, intolerable, frustrating response when she's in the wrong. So, I came up with a way. (some of you may think it's rude, especially those with traditional parents and all) I will look into her eyes and repeat her mistake, yes you guessed it, she WILL NOT apologise, but at least it brings her back to the topic and she knows it. Good start for my mum, she's arrogant and always thinks that she's right. People out there should know here better.



For "THANKS" some people will say things like. "Ok." "Good." What the heck? That's not even thanking the person! It's just acknowledging that the person has done something for you! Perhaps "Good." isn't as bad. At least it's a form of compliment. But "Ok."???



For "PLEASE", it's easy, many people nowadays simply don't say it at all. "Eh, bring me my pail of water!" Note, it's an exclamation mark and not a question mark. It's a demand not a request. Shouldn't you be more courteous when you're asking someone do something for you? This is an atrocious and unbearable attitude. It's unimaginable and unfathomable how much ARROGANCE and PRIDE a person can have. Well, born with the silver spoon in his mouth, I'm actually not that surprised. He's like 要风得风，要雨得雨. But my mum? What the heck?



I don't really consider my clique, well, a clique. The stupid thing is we don't really share many common interests. Believe it or not, the only thing that brought us together was, yes, DOTA. I mean, we're just so different. At least I am from them. Tow Wei likes gossiping, I hate it. Aaron enjoys cycling, I can't cycle. Ivan likes jamming, I don't know how to play any instruments. Mitchell likes Math, I dread it. Shim likes to play maple, I don't. Cek likes those funny clicking games on Internet, I think it's boring. Sac likes to eat hastily just for the sake of filling his stomach, I prefer to savour my food. (Not as slow as Cek, though, only sometimes.) See? it's so stupid. One fine day, two guys were talking about DOTA, then slowly, one by one, seven more people came in. And there, we have a clique. It's dumb, isn't it? There's not really a very strong bond between us. Just look at Mitchell and Tow Wei. Friends? Haha... Such a strong friendship right? Falling out with each other because of what? Clique? My foot. Looking at this perfect example, I don't really treasure this "clique" very much.



Speaking of which, friends are normal friends, a clique should be with friends with very strong bonds, and they will TRUST each other right? Hoho, trust. Damn this word. Assuming I have a private problem, be it BGR or anything else. Whom do I approach. Lets list out the people in my clique first, ok? Cek, Aaron, Ivan, Mitchell, Tow Wei, Isaac, Shim. First Cek? Nah... I don't want to touch on him, he's a great DOTA partner, I have to admit and lets keep it that way. Aaron, ok... His lips are quite tight, but he'll drop hints along the way and people like Ivan pick them up. What does he do? Discuss with other people, then the whole world would know. Mitchell, ok, was a great friend. Great listening ear, but can't really give constructive suggestions. He'll just lighten my burden. And yes, I'll go to him. Tow Wei?! HAHAHA. Great joke. Seconds for backstab anyone? NO WAY. Isaac, I haven't tried, but I think some misunderstanding is still stand between him and me. Shim, definitely not. He'll talk crap, and sometimes even telling his problems to me, making it doubly bad.

I know I'm not that perfect myself. My friends in my "clique" who read this may hate me a lot after saying this, but I still want to say it.

Yes, some of you out there will be wondering why I'm so critical towards my "friends" all of the sudden right? Well, it's the first time that I've listed out so many things about them, and yes, they might hate me, but I honestly can't be bothered anymore. When I have problems, who was there for me? My "friends"? Not even my mum to be exact. Want to know who it was? It was my window. When it's at night, I look through the window and see my own reflection. (Although I hate looking at myself in the mirror that's why I look at night cause you can't see your reflection) Somehow, it calms me down...

I want to start afresh. My life in secondary school has been a wreck. Many people know me as the crude, uncouth and vulgar cao ah beng. (I think, somehow) I want to change all this, at any cost. I want to go to a new school, and know new people. But that isn't enough. I want my clique to be as far away from me as possible. I don't want anyone to know me in my new school, I don't want tongues wagging. I mean, imagine Mr. P in my new school, "Eh, you know Lennard ah..." Stupid gossipers. I don't want this kind of thing to happen. Messing up people's reputation. That's all they do, so no life right? I don't want all these nonsense to happen to me. I'm gonna go so far, so that nobody will know me in my new school, as far as I can possibly go. I really want to start afresh, that will be my new year resolution. Bye, "friends" in my "clique".

Hello all! It's the 25th of December today, so Merry Christmas everybody! Yes, I know it is a bit late, since everybody had already done it when the clock struck 12. Hoho. I'm sorry that I haven't been blogging regularly, due to work. My job isn't a very tiring one, it's just that the journey there puts me off. It's not about the train ride. The time taken to go from Clementi to Eunos is approximately 35 minutes. It's the loop service number 15 that really pisses me off. It takes around 20 minutes for that darn bus to come! And yes, I'll be late for work by then.

I woke up really late today, at around 2. I was talking nonsense with Huiqing, that's why. I think she's feeling pretty pissed talking to me. According to her, I kept reading her mind. Haha. I feel that Christmas is just another day for me, a holiday which I can take a day off from work, that's all. I don't really celebrate Christmas. My life's rather mundane now, since I've taken up the job that my boss has offered me. It's just waking up in the morning at 8.00am, getting ready, and make my way down to my workplace. I will break for lunch at 1.00pm, and be back at around 1.30pm. (There's really nothing much to do in an industrial estate.) I'll knock off at 6.00pm, and go home. When I reach home, I'll eat, bathe, watch little nyonya (IT'S A MUST!) and go to bed. Well, money makes the world go round.

Oh! And I missed an episode of Little Nyonya yesterday, ARGH!

Hello all, I'm sorry that I haven't blogged for like three days. Please pardon me, as I was dead beat from work yesterday. Yes, I have a job now. Though the pay is low, the job is rather simple. My boss called me two days and asked me if I wanted to work. I agreed immediately, and asked him for venue of my workplace. It is at Kaki Bukit Place, Kaki Bukit Road 3. Wow, so helpful huh? Kudos to anyone who knows where this place is. I went to google to check where that place is promptly. It was at Eunos. I still had to trsansfer to a feeder service upon reaching the station. (I got all this information from SgForums.)



I woke up at 8.ooam yesterday, in case I would be late. I had to be there by 10.00am. Had a very heavy breakfast, and set off for my first day of work! The train ride too forever. It is a total of sixteen stops from Clementi. (This information is for Cassandra, 地铁白痴, hehe.)



Reached Eunos station at approximately 9.20am. I was quite elated, because I had forty minutes to spare. This would mean that I had forty minutes to figure out where the office is. But no, the bus ride took another twenty minutes. Hell, I tell you, hell. I dropped at the bus stop which I thought the office is at, but I thought wrong. I was desperately lost in this immensely huge industrial estate. I phoned my boss, and he gave me directions to lead me there. Finally reach the terrace office, but I was ten minutes late.



Upon arrival, my boss introduced me to a middle aged man who was wearing spectacles. I found out later on that he's the boss' brother. His name's Tony. Tony showed me around, and asked me what school I'm from, and the usual talk. He understands that I'm having my holidays and waiting for my O level results. He then took me to the cargo lift and we escalated to the second floor. He introduced two other Indian part-timers to me, (At least I thought that they were Indians at first.) informing them that I'm also a part-timer. One guy's called Britto(cool name, haha.), and the other... I can't remember his name. These 2 guys are awesome man, seriously friendly and extremely helpful. Britto's 25 and his friend is 27. Both of them are from Sri Lanka, and they're both Sinhalese! Yes, I finally! I can finally put my textbook knowledge to use! Tony starting joking about the T.T's so I joined in too, haha. Tony's really nice man, nicest boss I've ever met. Britto had a revolutionary thinking, he thought that ALL Singaporeans could speak the same Mother Tongue! He thought that I spoke Malay, haha. He was shocked when I told him that I didn't understand what the bosses were speaking entirely. He thought that Chinese, Hokkien, Teochew and Cantonese were all the same thing! I tried explaining to him that there are dialects... But I don't think he got the point, but never mind, hehe.



So what do I do for my job? Some of you might ask. Well, it's just simple packing, removing stickers. I comfortably seated down ALL THE TIME. HAHAHA. Worked till around 1.30pm and went for lunch. Both of them had Indian food, without utensils. They used their hands to eat. I ate Fried Rice. So that I would have enough energy to work as I did not know what time I would be knocking off. Went back to the office, and knocked off at 6.oopm.



I crossed the road, to take bus number 15 back to Eunos Mrt station. Waited till 6.20pm, when the bus finally came. It was really packed, and I wasn't sure if I could get on. So, it's time to display the Singapore Spirit! I just shoved my way through the crowd, squeezing my way into the crowd. I was the second last person who boarded the bus. Directly in front of me, there stood a woman, (note*) who was wearing a blue blouse and white long pants. The bus was so packed that her long silky hair was just millimetres away from my face, not to mention that she's smoking hot. I could smell the fragrance of her hair... Behind me was a Indian guy, who was pushing me forcefully and thus making me knock onto her incessantly. It is not very good for a guy's lower body to keep hitting a woman's lower body... (Yeah you picture the rest.) So I turned around and gave a loud "TSK". Wow, it worked wonders. He really stopped.

Gotta go now! Bye!

Hello all, it's Monday once again. I'm up so early because I agreed to go to Sentosa with Ivan today, and meet him at Food Republic at 9.00am. Don't know why I agreed, but yeah. I'll have to remind myself constantly to reach home by lastest 8.00pm, as Little Nyonya 2 hours special will be on tonight, yeah!

It wasn't a very pleasant night yesterday, Ivan blew his top. We were supposed to play dota, when Ivan told us that Zac, Zac's 2 friends and himself wanted to play. Everything was fine at first until Tow Wei mentioned that he wanted Cek, Aaron and I to be in his team, playing a 4v4 match. Ivan wasn't very pleased with that suggestion that Tow Wei made, and started making sarcastic remarks. I was quite shocked at first, because Ivan wasn't himself at all. I didn't breathe a word about how the 8 people should be split, I was just talking nonsense. (-arspomntnbdmmmsd). Well, Ivan did apologise to be just like a second later, but I felt that i wasn't the one he owed an apology to. I didn't really feel anything, but I think Tow Wei was more hurt. Well, "To err is human, to forgive divine." I'm definitely in no position to comment on Ivan's behaviour yesterday, as I myself was not quite a calm and cool person. For some of you who aren't that close to me, you haven't seen my UGLIEST side. These 7 guys in my clique have. I used to be the most short tempered person in the entire clique, but I think I'm like a dormant volcano now, haha. Well, Aaron did piss Tow Wei and I off yesterday, hehe.

Got to go now, will blog again later, running late, bye!

Hi all, it's been quite a while since I've posted. I told Cassandra that I'll be posting in Chinese, but apparently I don't have the stamina to do so. It's way too slow, haha. Argh, hated weekends are here to torture me. I seriously hate weekends, there's just nothing to do. It's just using the computer for the whole day, staring at the same old screen. I was lucky yesterday though, I had something to do. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban was showing yesterday, so I watched it since I had nothing to do. After that was Star Wars clone wars thingy. Quite cool, hehe.

By the way, I changed my blogskin, yay! I've been searching high and low for a nice skin, and voila! I figured I was a fan of Jay Chou, what the heck, haha. I'm still trying to perfect my skin, as I can't stand flaws in my blog. This is also the reason why I changed my skin. It is because my music wouldn't play unless you open my tagboard section. I tried doing what Kylie asked me to do, putting the code at the extreme top or extreme bottom, didn't work. Thanks very much for trying to help though, I really appreciate it! Thanks. And Kylie, I'm a straightforward person ok? I don't want to hide it and I certainly don't want anyone to misunderstand me. I don't hate you, nor do I dislike you. Don't listen to Towie. He's gone bananas. Feels great to get that off my chest, hoho.

Being a noob in blogging, (Yes, I have to admit.) I'd really appreciate it if you pros give me some pointers. (Cassandra, Kylie. Thanks! =DD) I will try my best to update, but blogging needs mood and feel. It's like falling in love. (I think, haha). You can't get anything done if you don't feel like doing it.

Friday was a great day, went to school with Towie, Cek and Aaron to make payment for the prom. I seriously felt the pinch. I'm not working at the moment and $50 just flew out of my wallet just like that. Argh. I hope that the prom will be a good one, as it will be the last time that the whole group of graduating students will be spending time together. After that, we'll be embarking on our individual journeys, and chances of meeting and having fun together will be slim. We reached school at around 1.30pm, and made payment. Saw the girls (Sorry I can't exactly remember who was there, just name you all collectively ok? Sorry, haha), Ben Tan and Alex there, after which Lin Hong came along. Arranged to go bowling together, all the 7 of us. Alex is a great guy man, funny, hehe. Went bowling, and the girls came to watch us. Terrible bowling experience that day. The moment I threw the bowling ball out of my hand, the excruciating pain set in, running from my arm to my back. It was the strain I had on the previous bowling session. Bad day, couldn't hit 3 digit at all. Argh.

After bowling, all of us went to Alex's house for a swim. (Note, I can't swim.) Well, had great fun there, since i brought my goggles. Realised that the swimming pool wasn't as clean as I had expected it to be. Hehe. They were playing some wrestling thing by the pool, looked fun, but I didn't join in as I was afraid I would fall into the water. I can swim a bit better already, just have to work on the breathing. Swimming didn't go exactly smooth, as I was attacked by cramps. The first one was on my left foot on my second toe, the second cramp was on my left leg. Argh. Hurts like crazy. Went for dinner after that, (I didn't want to.) And missed 20 minutes of Little Nyonya when I reached home! OMG LAH. Haha, but it's ok, there will be 2 hours of Little Nyonya on Monday! Yeah. Ok, that's about it, till next time, tata!

昨天约定了Cek和Aaron去打保龄球。本想约多一些人一起去的，但忙的忙，累的累，反正很多借口就对了，最终只有我们三个人去，真是有点失望。不过不要紧，作天还打得蛮开心的，和他们杀了五盘，成绩还算不错啦，呵呵。


昨晚在九点正在收看小娘惹。看到月娘如此坎坷的人生，心里难免会替她感到伤心。难道长得美，有错吗？她竟然因为长得美，而被黄家的大小姐黄珍珠嫉妒，也因此受到虐待。在小娘惹演出的个个都是实力派演员，真情流露，而剧情也越来越精彩，记得要收看哦！

Yay! It's finally Monday! I've been waiting for a long time for Monday to come, suffering through the weekend. So... Just 20 more hours, and I'll be enjoying myself by watching Little Nyonya! Yay! Haha. I don't know why, but this is the first time that I'm ever so addicted to a TV sitcom. Even the Golden Path wasn't as bad, I could miss one or two episodes, no harm done. But somehow this time's different. I am so addicted to Little Nyonya, I think I'd die if I even miss a single episode! Omg. And I've an urge, an very strong urge, to subscribe to mobtv and watch the whole series! The best part is that I can spoil for you all! Hahahaha.

I have to admit that I'm getting a bit bored of my current skin, but I can't find another skin that I actually like a lot! What am I to do? *Sigh*. It's not on the sight of my blogskin that bores me, but there are problems with it too! My imeem wouldn't play unless you open my "best." section, (tag board)I've no archiving. These issues are giving me serious headaches. The worst thing is that I can't solve these problems! Can Cassandra, Kylie, any blogging professional please help me out? Your help will be very much appreciated! Thanks!

I would like to express my views on an issue that I believe everyone must have encountered before in one way or another. If I've offended anyone in anyway, I sincerely ask for your forgiveness, as I'm not pin pointing at any particular person, but rather speaking in general. Back to the topic.

Why do people lock up their blogs?
I really don't understand why people like to lock up their blogs. A weblog is an online diary isn't it? If it's online, it means that people will be able to see them. If you're so afriaid of others reading your blog, why don't you just write your thoughts in a diary, lock it up in an old wooden box, hide the key to the wooden box in another metal box, dig a hole in the ground and bury the metal box in it? This is not the case. People read your blog to understand more about you, to know your interests and if they share the same interests as you. This is to improve the relations between people, so that people can be closer with one another. It is also a great way to help introverts interact and communicate; since they aren't really keen in talking face to face. If you're really unhappy about a person and you really want to do it, don't mention names, that that person would not be able to confront you. Even if that particular person knows it's himself/herself, then so be it! Let the person learn from whatever that you've been throught with him/her that you're unhappy about. Don't be so afraid, if you don't want that person to know, the situation will remain unchanged. Do something, don't do nothing.

Hello all, it's past midnight already, and I'm here posting. I can't read time off my computer now, because the battery that's powering the clock is flat. Therefore it gives messed up times. That's a small problem, I don't think I'd like to dissect my CPU to replace a small little battery... I'll just rely on my clock.

Well, it seems like the "Tag me please!" plan worked. Frankly speaking, people tagging on my blog is the only reason why I post.(Only the right people.) It keeps me going and gives life to my blog. I mean, won't you feel disappointed when you see that nobody has tagged you? The same old boring tag board that you've been staring at for a long time and nothing new is on it? I hate that feeling. Whenever I see that there's nothing new on my tag board, I'll just close the window and won't bother to blog.

Oh and by the way, I won't be online from 9pm - 11pm on weekdays. I've decided that I've spent too much time on the computer. That's why I've decided to assign this time slot to my other beloved - my television.

I would like to express my personal views on another topic that I've been pondering over for a few days. Why is it that people like to imitate the way Americans speak? I'm not really against that, but we're studying under the British when it comes to English, aren't we? So in that case, shouldn't we be speaking English English instead of trying to imitate American English? I mean, how many people out there actually know the difference between the American pronunciation and the British pronunciation in words like: medicine, can't, dance, schedule? It is really lucky that these words did not surface during our English oral examinations, I really don't know what the examiners would have done to us.

By the way, catch Mind Your Language every Monday night at 11pm on okto (whistle)!

Lennard
16th Sep 1992
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*A new handphone!
*Takamine (don't know model number) guitar!
*An electric guitar after I become better! Haha!

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