What.The.Eff
Ok. I don't know why this is happening. December is like an extremely horrible month for me this year, 2009. It's like almost everything that's happening to me either saddens me or makes me extremely pissed and frustrated. I'm like failing everything and everyone else around me is driving crazy. Seriously, December 2009 sucks balls.
Is this like the 3rd post about my mum? Yes, she pissed me off again. Seriously, what's there to expect? Today's Christmas right? 25/12/2009 sucks shit. It's the day where it's
GAME OVER for me, and my mum just HAD to piss me off. What the ___ shit. (I don't want to swear cause it's Christmas)
So it's like this. She was planning to go to my sister's house to shop with her and see how my two nephews were. My mum left earlier in the day to Bedok (who knows why) and was returning home. She called me when she was at Kallang and asked me if I was ready. I said it was raining extremely heavily. She said she hoped that by the time she was back it wouldn't be.
Later, she was at queenstown. She sent me a text saying that it wasn't raining and the weather was fine. I did not reply. After 10 minutes she called me. She was at Dover and she said that it wasn't raining. Ok. Up to this point, for those who don't get it, allow me to tell you what she was implying. It's simple. She was trying to say that I was
LYING. Seriously. I hate when people doubt me. I hate it when people say that I'm lying. I'm not _____. I don't lie for a living. I am not good at lying. Perhaps that's why people hate me cause I'm so ____ing frank and straightforward.
December really sucks TTM. And oh, did I mention that I ____ed up big time yesterday? I guess getting ______ is going to be on hiatus, at least till Jan. Bye.
6:09 PM
Friday, December 25, 2009
If only...
Woops!
It's like 3 in the morning now... I should be at camp... Yeah... SHOULD be... Fell asleep when I was bout to leave the house... My apologies to all the members of astro... Thank you guys for working so hard...
Anyway... CASSANDRA'S BACK! Hahahaaha... Was telling her about the convo I had with Kylie! Can't remember much, didn't save convo, but anyway~~ here's what i remembered.
Me: I was telling Kylie that I'm gonna have 4 wives! (YOU GUESS)... Bla...
Cass: Sunny, Ty and PSH!
Cass: Oh and FANYYYY!
Me (behind my comp), "Wtf? How? ROFLMAOLOL"
Hahahah, yes the 2 sentences she typed... In less than 2 secs! Hahaha! Very funny convo, hmm... Should be leaving the house in like 4 hours, and come back like 3 days later? Hahaha, actually no need worry lah, I'll be online in camp too! (I guess) hahahah. Since got internet and I'll be bringing my laptop.
Ok see you guys, I'm gonna catch like 3 hours of sleep, bye! :D
3:06 AM
Saturday, December 19, 2009
If only...
How can mothers be so unreasonable? FUCK LAH.
Fuck lah. I'm so fucking pissed right now. I'm seriously gonna keep fucking swearing in this fucking post.
SERIOUSLY MAN, HOW CAN MOTHERS BE SO FUCKING UNREASONABLE? THEY OUR MOTHERS BIG FUCK AH? CAN BLAME US FOR EVERYTHING?
Her: "Actually, yesterday supposed to have sales one..."
I walked off, anticipated what she was going to say.
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL. SHE'S PROBABLY GONNA SAY IT'S CALLED I QUARRELLED WITH HER IN THE MORNING THEN SHE GOT NO SALES. EH SOMEONE TELL ME. GOT LINK OR NOT? NO LINK!!! WHAT THE FUCK MAN. SHE CANNOT SELL HER PRODUCTS, BLAME IT ON HER OWN INCOMPETENCY LAH. WHAT THE FUCK DOES IT HAVE TO DO WITH ME.
YAH DAMN SMART RIGHT. NO SALES BLAME ME, WHEN GOT SALES/ EXTRA COMMISSION WHY NEVER TREAT ME TO LIKE SOME HOTEL DINNER OR SOMETHING? ALSO MY FAULT WHAT. EVERYTHING ALSO MY FAULT RIGHT? FUCKING HELL. BAD THINGS ALL BLAME ME. GOOD THINGS THAT HAPPEN, YOU NEVER GET A SHARE OF IT. FUCK LAH. SOMEONE PLEASE TEACH ME, HOW TO RESPECT THIS SORT OF MOTHER. PLEASE. FILIAL PIETY IS LIKE OUT OF THE WINDOW WITH THIS SORT OF MUM.
AND AS IF MY DAD WASN'T BAD ENOUGH. SERIOUSLY. FUCK MY LIFE. NO MEANING TO IT. FUCK THIS SHIT. THERE IS NO LIFE. WHOLE DAY STUDY FOR EXAM, RUSH FOR DEADLINES, GO HOME STILL FACE THIS SORT OF SHIT. NEED MONEY FROM FUCKING FATHER ALSO NEED TO THINK SO MUCH. CB LAH THIS SORT OF LIFE.
OK GONNA LEAVE THE HOUSE NOW. BYE
8:16 AM
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
If only...
Tests.
Wow. So quickly, in another term, and after 2 months of holiday. I'll be entering year 2. Yes, MIEC test today. Honestly speaking, I'm quite disappointed with myself. I spent almost 6 hours yesterday altogether studying in the library and this morning from 7-10 all on econs. And I'm still going to flunk it. ?? Next is POA on Monday. Zzz. It's so hard. Only like 3 papers during common test and I'm struggling already. I really wonder what I'm going to do during the final exam, when BMGT (which I totally have no clue about), and DSS kicks in. Oh and more advanced programming. And whoever said that Poly is slack, should seriously die, lol. I realised that mugging is actually quite fun, haha.
P.S. In the midst of your mugging, please DO NOT abandon your loved ones, or turn a deaf ear to them, be it your mum, your dad, or your Girlfriend/Boyfriend.
6:33 PM
Saturday, December 12, 2009
If only...
My Heart Cries for You
Hello. If you ever see this, (which I think it's never) then you'd really understand. When I saw that piece of news/rumour, my heart seriously sank. I had no mood to do anything at all. I was in class, but I couldn't pay attention nor concentrate. I couldn't do the questions my teacher had assigned me to.
I went for lunch - alone. Played pool - couldn't focus, and lost horribly. It's just affecting me so greatly. I seriosuly hope you can really smile from your heart, but I can hardly find any pictures with you like that and I can't say - be like tha picture above. I understand that you're going through a lot of hard times now... But think of your 8 sisters! You've been through so much together, their umma; and now you just want to be someone normal? How is that possible? For 2 years, 1 month and 22 days, you've been their umma, advisor, mentor, and now after walking this far, you want to give up? Please don't! Persevere! We sone's are FOREVER behind you!
Taeyeon Hwaiting!!!
9:26 PM
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
If only...
